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comeback again wif my mr.blog...emmm...

tension...that is the word to describe me rite now...

wif my work....work....and work again...huhuhu...

but i learn to keep smylee...;)

u know wat  mr.blog....this few weeks i face a lot of things...

actually..its all about personal feelings...huh...dun like this stuff disturb me...

emmm...wat will u do for your 7 years luv??...

actually, it just one side luv story...tepok sbelah tangan leer kate owg melayu huhuhu...

i feel sad for her...about wat had hapen...its really2 hurt...

that guy lied to her...huh...how dare he hurt my luv...

i always thinking of her...i know she luv someone rite know...

i just wanna she always smyle...i dun want someone hurt her...

 “memilih wanita kerana agamanya”

 

 7 years i feel in luv wif her....till now...i know i'll never get her...

u know wat mr.blog....i have 45 days luv experience wif her...

i know, its only me feel it huhuhu...never mind...

emm...i tried to forget her...but...i cant...

i tried not to look at her page on fb, but everytyme when i online...

i will open her page...i will look at her pic...smyle alone like stupid person huhu...

i tried not to send her masge but..i will send her msge averyday...even i know she will not reply my msge...

remember my memory wif her, will make me smyle....from high school till now...

i luv the way she smyle, she talk, she taking picture, she feel angry...and many things...

and one thing that make me really luv her...is the way she appreciate her religion...

sad....

nage, adam, abu.....sume ckp...lupekan jela jak...rmi pmpuan lain...

huh...ak mncari cinta bukan pempuan (dialog lagenda budak setan)....

dulu ak rs, perasaan setia pd dr ak ni satu keistimewaan....tapi....sebenarnye baru ak sdr...

bnd ni satu klmahan ak...

eh...tb2 ak teringat....ms die naik teksi utk blk kolej die wat flying kiss kat ak...ak trsenyum...

that is last day i met her..and that is the ending of 45 days story...

blk dri cuti ry cine awl taon ritu...

ak penah ckp kat die...lau die blm btol2 sygkn sowg llki tu...jgn ckp yg die sygkn llki tu...

sbb bnde tu mgkin menyakitkan...cam yg ak rs skg...

ak da x mmpu nk sygkan owg len da....

tiap kali lps solat...x pnh ak lp utk doakn die....

ak slalu berdoa...kalu Allah ciptkn die utk ak, bukaknlah hati die utk mnrime ak....tp kalu x, ak berdoa

agar permudahknlah ak utk lpkan die....

dulu...ak snts brhrp, agar ak ad tmpt kat hati die...tp skg, walupon rs syg ak x brubah..

tp ak bljr utk x brhrp lg....

emm..tb2 ak xd mood nk smbong...sowey mr.blog....t ak smbg lg....doa ak...agr die dpt

seowg llki yg btol2 appreciate die...sygkn die...cntkn die...

slm syg ak utk die (die x tau pon huhuhu)...

biar ada lenggang kabus suram…

biar ada dansa geledek tajam…

biar ada tambur gerimis malam…

biar ada kidung badai dendam…

pada simpang siur jalan takdirku…

mengarang sisipan musim rancung…

menyamping roh dari tubuhku…

menyentak aku dari namaku…

namun, diantara kita kekasih…

jauhnya cuma sehasta angin…

letih sgt rasnye bbrape ari ni....

jumaat n sabtu ari tu ada workshop untuk memilih top 10 malaysian new furniture designer 2011...

ak dpt top 20 and aku cube untuk dptkn top 10...

tapi xd rezeki...xplah...ak da cube sehabis bek...

bl kt dlm bidang yg mcmni...

kt x mmpu nk puaskan ati sume owg...ad owg yg kt design kt bagus n ad owg kt x...

bnde ni subjective....

tapi da dpt top 20 malaysia pon, da syukur Alhamdulillah rsnye...pastu dpt plak certificate good design...

seronok sgt...

n semalam aku terkejar2 utk submit design utk MRM...young designers challenge 2010....

ak hrp ak ad rezeki lah...huhu...sumenye begantung pd Allah....

n skang ak tumpukan utk MIFF ideation award 2011....byknye kije huhuhu...

tapi...ak seronok...sbab ni lah salh satu cr utk tmbh pengalaman....

mampu ke...insyaAllah...sujak blh huhuhu...

rs susah dri part 1 ak blh tanggung...insyaAllah yg ni blh...

bl ak x dpt top 10 ari tu...petangnye ak ad meeting ngan bos 1 company ni...java deco...

die da lm contact ak...tp ari tu bru die ad ms nk jmp ak...die soh ak wat project utk company die...

Alhamdulillah....x dpt yg 1 Allah bg yg len...Maha Adil Mu Ya Allah...

project tu besar...n membabitkn cost yg sgt tgi...anggaran 1 million...wow....

n tugas ak adalah sebagai researcher n designer...project tu ambek ms kurg2 setahun...

ak rs tkut plak...sbb diowg cam ltk kepercayaan yg tgi...

walupun ak tau ak mahir wat research..(mahir ke huhuhu...ad lg hebat)....

tp ak ad rs takut gak sbb....ni project yg sgt besr...

tp ni peluang utk ak.....so...ak bg syarat...sbb bnd ni babitkn research n design ak...n perlu teliti...

project ni adlh project wall decoration utk interior satu hotel kat sabah....

so...ak trime cabaran ni...that is me:)

ak akn start pertengahan bulan 11 ni...n skg ni diowg dlm perbincangan utk syarat2 ak...

insyaAllah...ad rezeki ak..

ibu cakap...."doa ibu x penah putus utk ank2 ibu....along wat lah yg trbek"..

sedih bl dengo ibu ckp cmtu...huuuuuu..

emmm......sebenonye ak ni…ad satu masalah yg sllu menggu ak……

ak slalu tringtkn die…..die?.....

sape die??...huhuhu

jgn slh fhm ye…ak xd gurl kea pe….tapi aku ad owg yg ak syg sgt, ak cntkn die (selain family ak laa)…tp ak x pnh pon ad ap2 ngn die huhuhu…

peliknye…huhu…itulah ak….die penah kt, terus terang die xblh trime ak…

die nk llaki yg matang yg blh mmbimbing die…..so…

ak ni x mtg ke huhuu…..xplah….owg x knl ak…..aku bljr utk redhaJ

sebab ak tau….kalu dia bkn hak kt…kt kejo camne pon xkn dpt…

tapii…ak btol2 x leh lupekn die….die first luve ak dari high school lagi….

smpi skg…wlupon ak pnh couple ngn owg len…tp ak x leh lupe die…

bkn mksud ak…ak curang…ak cume x leh lupe…sbb tu first tyme ak jth cinte…

n smpi skg….x mmpu ak nk cntkan owg len….

ak tau ak x mmpu nk jadik yg trbek utk sape2….

n ak x mmpu jadik sempurne cam owg len….

tapi ak redha…..learn to accept n learn to smyle……

aku x penah lupkan die dlm doa ak setiap lps solat….

semoge cinta n syg aku utk die kkl insyaallah.......

mewarna "pelangi".....

Bersujud syukur aku padamu Ya Allah....

Menadah tangan memohon restuMu.....

Menitipkan namaMu di bibirku....

Berteleku aku.....

Menyesali diri....

Amat hina aku Ya Allah...

Terlalu leka aku dengan duniaMu....

Berilah aku ruang.....

Untuk membetulkan khilafku...

Agar aku mampu untuk menghadapi akhiratMu.....

Amin Ya Allah.......

kdgkale kt sngkkn pns hge ke ptg...

tp rupe2 nye hujan d tghari....

tapi kt x tau sebenarnye Allah nk bg kt pelangi...

byk sgt bnd yg brlaku dlm life ni ak rs ak x mmpu nk tanggung....

mimpi....

cita-cita....

impian....

matlamat....

emmm....mmpu ke ak nk tanggung bnde ni sowg2...

InsyaAllah...sujud syukur ak pd Allah...

yg bg ak kkuatan....

ngat lagi....ms pas form six dulu....sume ahli keluarge ak soh jadik cikgu...

emm...mak,makcik ngn pakcik sume soh camtu...

ibu ngn ayah je yg x ckp cmtu...mule rs cam nk mengalah je...

ak msuk form six bkn nk jdk cikgu...ak nk kejo impian ak...

rmi jgk yg mcm pndg rendah.....trmasuklah cikgu2....

tp ak...x ksh....sbb ak ad matlamat....

there is one day...my teacher said to me...that i have a talent in this field...

i feel so proud of it...he said, he don't know what is gonna happen if i didn't in that claz...

he told every teacher...he proud of me...

first time in my life...there are a person really appreciate

my talent....

my dream...

my ambition...

seronok sangat....ibu ngan ayah x ksah ap yg ak minat...

n after stpm....industrial design is my choice....

i remmber when i selected to go to da art n design interview...

after the panel see my personal information and my dad salary slip...

there have a interview panel that ask me one question...

"did your family can support u in this course?...u will use alot of money..."

 yes sir....ak yakin ngn jawapan ak...walaupun ak tau family ak x mmpu...

tp ak sgup ssh untuk capai cita2 ak....

n now...here i am...industrial design student...

really hard.....sacrifice time and money...

ak penah rs x mkn 2 3 hari...just jamah roti or biskut...

ak sedih ibu ak sgup brlapar kat umah sbb nk bg ak duit...

ak rs brslh sgt....

mfkn along ibu....

kalu ak tau ak akn myusahkn ibu ak...

ak sgup lpkn cite2 ak...

tapi....ak tau...ibu ak sowg yg sgt kuat....

nk ak kene buktikan kat family ak...

ak belajar brjimat...supaye ak tau hdp ssh...

sbb kalu kt sng kt xkn hargai ap yg kt ad...

tp kalu kt sush dlu....kt akan bljr utk hargainye...

skg tgl x smpi sthun lgi....

x sgk ak mmpu smpi skg ni...

semoge ak ad kekuatan utk smpi ke akhir...

tiap titis air mate ibu aku...

akn aku bls insyaAllah.....

tiada wanita sehebat ibu ak dlm hdp ak...

Sayang hingga akhirat untuk ibu dan ayah...............................

 

 

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finally.....
i'm in my personal blog...
seronok rasenye.....x penah ad personal blog...ak ad web design je huhuhu...ni first time so...
how should i start.....
emm...actually...what make me open this blog...
i need 'someone' to share....wif my mr.blog....so here i am huhuhu...
sepohon pokok dan sebiji epal...byk sangat maksud tersirat dalam name ni...
name ni...
bagi ak inspirasi...
bagi ak keyakinan...
bagi ak semangat...
bagi ak kesempatan....
bagi ak ruang...
bagi ak peluang...
semoge ak dpt menumpang d satu sudut sisi dunie ni...utk menjadi diri sndiri....:)